saya memang bukan yang terbaik...

maafkan saya...

My morning starts to shine with teardrops in my eyes
And here I am alone starting to realize
That my days would be brighter, if I could learn to hide
The feelings that I have for you keep hurtin me inside

Then my day begins with simple thoughts of you
Hoping that tomorrow would be me and you
Sharing dreams with each other
And making them come true
Holding one another, saying all I need is you

But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when I need you, you will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This I swear is true, my love will always be with you

Now my nights would end that just one wish that's you
To hold me in the dark, help me make it through
Cause the pain that's inside me, would simply melt away
If I had you here with me and promise me you'll stay

p/s: :(

it is wrong?????

4 being honest..

4 being just ourselves?

it's ok then...

T.T

mood: agk sentimental...heee~

for you.......

aku...kamu...dan hujan...

i've noticed

that being with u,

i smile a little more often

i anger a little less quickly

the sun shines a little brighter

and life is so much sweeter

for being with u

takes me to a different place

a place called

LOVE

i just want u to know...

"Another day had passed
Here I am still wanting it to last
Misunderstandings we had surpassed
We ought to know meeting them is a must

Full of glad we made it okay
From the past days until today
Getting better as we may
Swearing words we say

I just can't do anything except to love YOU
Sitting in a corner and think of YOU
is everything I do
I just couldn't believe this is true
I am so LUCKY TO HAVE YOU."

berkecamuk..

jiwa kacau..

hancur..

:(

tidak mengapa...:)

adoiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!

GERAMMMMMMM NYAAAAAAAAA!

huuu...

BENCI!

rndu sum1..

sgtttt..

huuu..

lgu bila rndu trngiang2 d tlinga..

huuu

p/s: nk updte ngn cte len..tpi tnggu esok je la..huuu..:(

skrg..

rindu fmily..

rndu dia..

rndu kwn2 lma..

dgr lagu..

trfkir sesuatu...

'they r not other half of me..'

yup..

it's true..

ok..tata..hee~

i'm juz not being myself lately..

at this moment is the climax part i think..

but if i do,

they juz didn't know who i am actually..

huh..

i don't care if u don't really care..

i hate myself,

i hate what i feel.

i hate this situation..

i hate ...i hate,..

missing all of people that used to be close 2 me..

(why all of u have 2 be too far away from me rite now?huhu)

need ol of u now..

sorry 4 those who i had broke their heart into small pieces..

the more i feel sad, the more i broke another heart,

so sorry..

didn't mean to..

p/s: english ku yg trok..:

duhhhhhhhhh...

rindunya!!!!!!!!

mood: sentimental

jgn lyn sgt..haha

juz now buat movie marathon..

horror movie..

1st story x serm sgt...

tyme tu tgk ngn zati..nunul xnk tgk..

hehe..

2nd story tgk sorg2..

agk rsa nk trkluar gak la jntung..

ckit2..trkjut..

haha..

then...tgk love story pulak..

hehe..

org dh len dh berkurun dh tgk cte ni..

but me..

bru je..tpi x kesah la..

hihi...

SEPI...

3 kisah cinta..

cdey tol crita ni..huhu..

sebak..

KISAH CINTA 1..

love people who loves you more than u love him or her..

but how if u don't love him or her walo ckit pun?

hmm...

adam cinta ilyana..

ilyana ada org lain..

tpi dia cinta adam..

perkhwinan ilyana tlh di ttpkn..

ADAM: KENAPA DITAKDIR BERJUMPA

KALAU UNTUK BERPISAH?

suzy pula cinta adam dri dlu..

walaupun adam x cinta suzy..

suzy x kesah..suzy msih terkejr2..

bila adam tahu ilyana akn menikah,

adam pergi jauh..

usaha trima suzy..

suzy suka..

adam thu suzy sygknnya..

ilyana sedr cinta nya milik adam..

btlkn perkhwinan..

ilyana tahu apa yg dia mahukn..

ilyana jmpa adam..

ilyana tahu adam dan suzy bersma..

ilyana nk g jaoh..

adam x rela..

adam g tau suzy mreka x boleh brsma..

suzy akur..

ilyana dn adam bersatu..

they love each other..

KISAH CINTA 2..

cinta penuh dgn kata2 manis dan janji..
janji melambak2..
tpi x terpenuhkn pun..
huhu..
letih wat org len mengharap je..
jdi..jgn tabur jnji kalo xley tunaikn ok?

mcm kisah cinta kedua ni,
jnji x tertunaikn smpai isteri dia meninggal dpn mata sndri..
cdey tol..
bila dh xde,bru mnyesal..

pling cdey bila pgi2 breakfast,
tgk ank dia wat sndri breakfast tu..
si ayh g joging utk cuba hilngkn ksdihn hati..

sblum ni,
msa breakfast..
si ayh rushing..x smpt nk mkn pun apa si isteri dh sediakn kt meja mkn..
smpaikn ucpn syg pun dh lupa nk ucpkn..
si isteri hnya boleh ckp..

isteri: i love u..
(dgn nada cdey..walopun suami x dgr dn berlalu pergi)
suami: i love u too..
(tringtkn kebiasaan mengucpkn kata syg kpda istri sblum g kerja..smbil msok blik ke rumh..)
nsib baik dia ingtkn?hehe..kalo x,,hmmm..
anak: i love u 3 mama...

hihi..
so sweet..

tpi itu dlu..
skrg si isteri dh tiada..

tba2..
hadirnya cinta kedua..
KENAPA DITAKDIR UNTUK BERJUMPA
KALAU BUKAN UNTUK BERSAMA?
tidak mngira bila cinta itu hadir..
mungkin di kala usia sudh lnjut..
cinta x dtg sekali dlm hidup..
mmberi nfas bru kpda si suami tdi bersama cinta baru..

KISAH CINTA 3:

"tlng jgn ganggu sya..
saya x berminat..
sya ade boyfriend.."

si gadis pun jalan mnju ke arh buah hati nya..

p: awk nmpk die kacau gf awak ni?
l: ye..
p: awak xnk buat apa2?
l: saya tau awk pndai jga dri..
p: hmm..(cdey..)
tpi dia tahu melalui pndgn lelki itu,
ada cinta di mata nya..
hehe..

boyfriend dia dh lme mninggal..
tpi pompuan tu still xley trima..
mngkin sbb laki tu tba2 pergi dgn drastik dri hidupnya..
tba2..mati dpn mata sndri..

mujur hdirnya seseorg yg bru..
p: trima ksih slmtkn sya..
l: x..trima kasih sbb benarkn sya..
(trus tringt my dear..)

sumtimes we don't realise what we got..

until we lost it..

2 remind myself..

he's there when i need him..

mayb it is not really that ketara...

but i know..he's there..

rite?

"as we go on..
we remember..

all the times we had together..

as our lives change..

come whatever..

we will still be..

friends forever.."

that song btol2 mengingtkn aku pda memori2 lma..

bersma temn2,shbt2,rkn2,kwn2...

hehe..

F.R.I.E.N.D.S...

(dlm bhse omputeh nyerr..haha)

kwn yg tlh lma bersma kita..

yg dh byk share mcm2..

x sma dgn kwn yg bru kita knali..

sethun pun x ckup utk mengenali sesorg..

ambik msa yg lma sangaaaaaaaat2 utk mngnli sesorg.....

jdi kwn lma ni mmg sush dilupkn..

apth lgi yg teramat rpt dgn kita..

pernah gurau2..gaduh2..nangis2..hepi2..

semua nya bersama..

sush juga nk cri org yg dlm msa yg singkt je bolh adapt ngn kita dlm semua topik...

haha...

best buddies ever..

me,intan n ila in da pic..
pic was taken last holiday..

intan, still have problem with ur hair ka?

hehe..ju g kuantan ctok..temn ku shopping bju rya..lom da gik..huhu..

ila, mun ko dkt jak nak ka bez oo..

jaoh glak ko d sabah nun..huhu..

ila n tek..

matrix tyme..

tek,long time x jmpa..

dlu we used pergi sahur n buka puasa together-gether at matrix..

outing sma2..

every weekend g pizza hut n kfc..mun x pun,g mkn nsi aym..

sma ngn nyak ira...

haha..

ila,tek n me..

dinner kt mna ntah tyme ni..

bukn d pagayaman(nma tmpt mkn di labuan..dpn matrix only..hihi)..

msk sndri..steamboat..

fuhhh..

seafood melambak..fresh2..

rindu pula zmn matrix dlu..

huhu..

secondary school...

me n ol gurls from my class..

dri form 1 smpai form 5 ol of us together..

x prnh tukr kls k...

dis pic was taken after finished our graduation day(form 5)..

msa form 5..

i'll not n never forget my secondary school memories..

sbb byk sgt2...

kalo nk ckp pasal kngn..

byk sgt2..

mungkin len kali boleh crita kt cni..

hehehe..

dn rsanya..

kwn2 scndry school msih bez smpai skrg..

love ol of u...so much!!!!!!!!!

"harusku teruskn hidup..

walaupun perit tanpamu..lalala.."

p/s:really miss my ol frens..

boleh bgi pintu sesukahati doraemon x?

bleh jumpe semua dlm msa yg sngkt..

hehe..

eh..HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY to all!

~aku x bley harapkan apa yg berlaku pda msa lalu berulang lagi pada saat ini~

(me n my beloved family)

bru abiz gayut with my family juz now..

with my dad,my lil' bro, and my mum..

my younger sis not at home..

going out somewhere..

wif her fren..(merngkp my reltive juge)

all of them oredy went to bazaar ramadhan..

well,dekt je ngn rumh..

blh jln kaki lgi..

huhu..

oredy miss d moment kalau puasa d rumh..

ats meja msti pnoh dgn aneka mknn n minuman yg lebih dri 1 jenis..

mcm2 ada..

but yg pnting...msti ada ABC(air btu cmpur)..

my dad's favorite..
tdi my dad bsoh kereta wif my younger bro..

n sempt lgi we chit chat lma2 walopun die tgh bsoh keta..

haha...

then i called along,my older sis..

actually nk check whether she feel lonely or not kn..

dh dia tnggl sorg2 at d other house..

in kuching..

my dad sume2 tu at bintulu..k?

n..dia x lonely poon..

juz now dia kt bazaar dpn umh je..

wif her boyfriend..

smpt ckp2 ngn both of them..

me n my sis sprti biasa,

crita psl persiapn rya yg akn mnjelng tba..

pdhal bru je strt pose..

n of coz rndu sgt2 with my fren msa scondry school..

for 5 years kita org share lots of thing together..

n of coz kngn waktu bulan puasa juga trlibt..

hehe..

ila,intan,ira,tek,murni,ija,nurul,kak nad,wanie...(ada yg trtnggl ka?sowi oo)

rndu tak org gilak2..huhu...

sme goes wif budak2 laki 1 setia smpey 5 maju..

miss u guys..

p/s:mood skrg ni adlh rndu sgt2 kt umh..d moment wktu buln pose d umh..

huhu...

huhu..

walaupun agk blur mlm ni...

tpi...

the best part is....

dpt mkn kek from secret recipe!!!!!!

yihaaa...

hehe..

me n rum8..

mkn ni lps tasha blik dri jln2..

hehe..

ikin-marble cheese cake

tasha-classic cheese cake

nana-chocolate fudge cake

nisa-raspberry cheese cake

hiihihi..

delicious...

ilng ckit rsa bingung+gelabah+ntah pape..

hehe..

dn trima ksih sgt2 kpda seseorg yg bnyk mmbntu nisa mlm ni..

hihih..

u know who u are..

hehe..

really appreciate it..

thanx...

nisa terhidrat!

huhuhu..

ok2..

my mum soh bli air mineral byk2..

hihi..

bukn semua btol ni aku punye k..

pgi kls kt pekan wajib bwk air..
nnti terhidrat..
bwk botol kcik je ckup la..
nnti letih lak nk bwk btol bsr..

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line internet x ok sgt kblkgn ni..
(x ok sgt ke mmg sgt2 x ok?huhu)
agk bengang d situ..
hmm...
tpi apa leh buat..
apa yg drasakn,xpat di post dgn serta merta ke dlm blog..
huhu..cdey..

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manggis!
i like!
tba2 trasa nk mkn manggis gara2 seorg insan yg bgi tau ada manggis di blik dia..
n aku asyek sebut psl mnggis je dlm blik..
hehe..
my rum8 pun pesn kt bfren dia
blikn manggis..
i x tau pun ok...
at last..
dpt mkn pun..
hihi..
(hepi2!maceh yer..)


gmbr kekaburn...
hikhik..
(tgn nana nk gak interfrem..hihi)
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ari tu g jog..
bersma2 dgn zati n watiey..

huhuhu...

sbnrnya skrg ni teringin lak nk mkn

kt kenny rogers!

uwaaa...

sdp2!

ats ni gmbr dlm klinik ump...

1st tyme aku msok tdi..

hehehehehe...

titi n me temn nunul g klinik ni..

die x sehat..

pas2 plan nk g mkn trus..

b4 tu kite org g kls math yg tbe2 je ade..

hmm...

maafkn aku kpada sape2 yg x tau de kls tu ekk..

cmni cte nyer..

"miss tu kol aku kol 9.56 pagi.."

dsbbkn kls kita mmg sptut nya kol 4 ptg je..

aku pun still tdo ngn bez nyer tyme tu..

miz pulk tba2 kol..

n ckp de kls kol 10-12 a.m..

ptut nya de kls kol 8-10 pgi..

but no one yg dtg kls..

yelah..dh kita semua x tau de kls pun kn?

aku ckp la x siap g ni nk g kls..

pas2 dia kta x kesh kalo dtg lmbt..

jnji de org dtg n die bgi lecture..

ok..fine..

aku tau miss tu mmg smgt gler kalo nk ngajar org math ni..

aku salute itu!

n dgn tergesa2 aku bgun n hntr msg kt sorg pompuan n sorg laki dgn hrpn utk menginformkn kt mmbr2 len...

pas2 g mndi la kn?

wah..detail pulk aku cta ni..

hmm..

pas2 aku still hntr msg kt org len gak ..

tkut2 de je yg still x tau de kls..

tpi xkn nk msg semua org kn?

korg pun fhm la kn?

pas2 msg kt org len gak..

tpi xpe..

hmm..

kt cni,aku nk mnx maaf byk2 kt sape2 yg x tahu menahu pasl kls math tdi ok..

aku pun g kls lewat gak..

attndance x wajib pun..

maafkn saya!

:)

oh..berbalik kpda crita klinik tdi..

nunul d kuarantin!!!!!

skrg dh blik umah aunty dh..

reht byk2 yer nunul..

jmpe lgi nnti..

p/s: huhu..msti cdey miz crab a.k.a nunul xde ni..

gonna miz u!hehe

bile rmai yg pulng ke tmpt msing2..

tingkp2 bilik di kolej kdiamn yg dibuka..

ckit sgt..!

mnandakn hnya bbrpa bilik yg berpnghuni..

kafe ksong!

hnya bbrpa yg singgah..

smpaikn mak cik cfe pun ckp cmni,

"kalo ari2 cmni,bleh ngntok mak cik berniaga"

hehe

kes h1n1 blom slesai..

ingtkn heaven sgt bila x blik cuti..

tpi..asyek kne pnggil g perjmpaan..hmm..

siap d tefon oleh kakak ofis ump g..

siyes aku ingt kn yg tefon tyme tu dak india yg dpn blik aku tu..

sore sbijik cam dia!

rupenye..slh ok!

check buat kli ke -2..

slps prjmpaan di JHEAA..

ni kt ONE STOP CENTRE..

37.2 degree celcius!

tmbh 1 degree..

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actually perjmpaan ngn timbln nc tu,

die nk soh sume2 yg still ada d ump blik sgera ke tmpt msing2..

xde alsn nk siapkn psm or wuteva kerja yg melmbk..

dak2 smnnjung dikerah blik scpt mngkin!

how about international student n sabahan n sarawakian?

hmmmm..

dorg akn d tmptkn d stu tmpt khas..

xbez2..xpat dok blik sndri..

ingtkn leh dpt tiket flight free..:P

jdi aku decide utk kol aunty aku terus ptg tu!

n now...

i'm at my aunty's house!
tpi still x sma mcm my own house..

huhuh..

tgk dak 2 org tu!

laptop ku drmpas oleh due dak kcik ni bila

aku jejakkn kaki di umh mreka...

uwaa...

cdey!

aku d buli oleh dak kcik!

ahernya..

bila semua org dh blik umh msing2..

bila seciput je mnusia d ump ni..

bru la line ok..

haha..

dpt juga aku post sumthng kt cni..

biar aku critakan apa yg brlaku b4 ni ok..

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I-FEST..

ISLAMIC FESTIVAL di UMP..

ada kumpulan

IRSYADI(KIPSAS)..

IMTINAN(SAHAM UMP)

IMTIYAZ(UMP)

MUSLIM VOICE(FINALIS AKADEMI NASYID)

nyanyian dorg suma bez2!

me,nunul,jaja n titi g tgk kt wdku2..

siap da cbutn bertuah lgi..

tka no. mna yg bertuah tu?

nunul,jaja,titi n me..
ntah cm mna titi n jaja jdi kmbr mlm tu..
hahaha..
wrna bju n tdung sma..
ni la pmng cbutn bertuah mlm tu..
titi!

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skrg crita pasl student mekanikal n electric yg kna study d ump pekan pulak..
hmmm..
b4 ni kita org study d ump gambang..
skrg jdual dh brubh..
hmm..agk pyh bila trpksa brtukr tmpt study tba2 mcm ni..
dgn naik bas sejam ke pekan..
ump pekan tu pulak x spnuhnya siap....
hmm..
hari pertma di ump pekan...

pmndgn msa otw nk ke ump pekan..

tpi pntai...

kwsn2 yg x siap lgi...

blok kls...

msa mnunggu lecturer yg mngjr subjek autocad masok...

smpt lgi..

hehe..

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3 ari d pekan..

aku berusaha mnyesuaikn diri dgn naik bs ke sna..

tba2 je ....

ump dpt cuti khas!

ni semua gara2 h1n1!

ishhh!

yg x bez nya..

cuti rya aku akn berkurg..!huh!
dh booked tiket dh ok!

dgn cuti seminggu yg mndadak..

ump sediakn bs free utk student nya blik ke dstinasi msing2..

tu pun semua org berebut2 nk naik bs free..

g melaka,johor,klntan,trngganu,perak dll....

unfair!

xde ke tiket flight free utk budak sbh sarawak?

huh!

p/s:bru je lps check kt pyung putih tdi,

i'm 37.1 degree celcius!

haha